coming of age is a tough and weird process…

I have always been afraid of growing up, and as my teen years have come to a close and as my 20s are in full swing, it feels like I am being hurled further and further into a process I do not feel equipped to handle.

while I am still afraid of growing up, I have begun to find the beauty in it. over the past five or so years, I have changed in ways I could have never imagined, I have met people that have drastically altered the course of my life, I have experienced emotions that are so unimaginably boundless that I have learned what it means be free.

this process oftentimes knocked me down, but in those moments, where time slowed down and emotions intensified, I learned how to pick myself back up and grow.  I have been forced into various situations like these, that have tried me unlike any other, but from them came something beautiful – my coming of age.

for as long as I can remember, “coming of age,” as a genre, has been my favorite mode of artistic and creative expression. I have looked up to the storytellers that have conjured up these worlds and have emulated their vision in the work I produce.

in this project I use these films, books and songs to contextualize my coming of age – my process of growth, my understandings of triumph and hardship, my internalizations of joy and sadness. these images are divided into five sections: end of an era, new beginnings, awake, a work in progress and youthful brashness. each of these describes a different part of this period and takes us all the way to the present day… a period of youthful brashness – one characterized by immense energy and zest for life, while retaining a childlike wonder and awe for the world.

though all the quotes I have used are borrowed from others that have moved and inspired me, I wanted to share something I wrote in my journal a long time ago, but presently feel is more applicable than it ever was, “life is risky, tough, and beautiful… sometimes all at once. learning to love this has taken me a really long time, but I am starting to actually trust in it.”

 

this is a playlist I put together with all the songs I feel best encapsulate my coming of age.